I'd rather be remembered as a smiling face, than this fucking wreck thats taking place.

shit set
but i kinda lost the only thing keeping me here..
but okay..
 
sorry for being so inactive aha, its been a busy few months.
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taylor said write llama.

WHY?! So you tell me you want me back.. right when i start to get over you. WHYYYYYYY D: ugh.

Amy likes to eat YOGhurt with Tayorfartface.
@adolescentsuicides @penisbungholian
Anyone wanna join our army? We aim to kill everyone :3
*teenage angst*

Have you ever hated someone you used to love so much?
Like, They don't deserve to have anyone else.
All those times they said they'd love you forever and always, and that they shouldnt have the right to say that to anyone else.
It hurts to bad to hear they've been b.itching to other about you.
And it hurts not knowing if they miss you.
Everythingfu..ckinghurts.
Fuc..king.
Fuu.ck.
On the other hand, I'm going to Soundwave!! <3 I'll meet Kellin and Vic and Austin and Oli and Jay and Dahvie and ermagawddd...
 
111 questions
.Tag 20 people - No.
111 Questions:
1) Are you really ready for 111 questions?
I guess so.
2) Was your last real relationship a mistake?
I wish i didnt waste so much time on it.
3) Who did you last say “I love you” to?
Amy.
5) Do you regret it?
No.
6) Have you ever been depressed?
Lolyep.
7) Are you a boy or girl?
girl.
9) What is your relationship status?
...Don't even.
10) How do you want to die?
Bleed to death.
11) What did you last eat?
Orange.
12) Played any sports?
Sportswat?
13) Do you bite your nails?
On occasion.
4) When was your last physical fight?
Year 8?
15) Do you have an attitude? Of course.
16) Do you like someone?
Yes, but i don't really want to.
17) What is your real name?
Rachel.
19) Are you going to get high later?
No.
20) Do you hate anyone at the moment?
Besides everyone? No..
21) Do you miss someone?
Yeah..
22) Twirl or cut your spaghetti?
Twirl.
23) Do you tan a lot?
Nope.
25) How exactly are you feeling?
Sad. Anxious. Sick. Scared. Annoyed. Ugh.
26) Ever eaten food in a car while someone or yourself is driving?
Indeed.
27) Ever made out in the bathroom? Yes.
28) Would you take any of your exes back? I want to, but i know i'd regret it.
.29) Are you scared of spiders?
Only if they're on me.
30) Would you go back in time if you were given the chance?
Sure.
31) Do you regret anything from your past? Yeah..
32) What are your plans for this weekend?
Assignments, Music, Work, Tumblr.
34) Did you ever kiss someone whose name starts with M?
No.
35) Do you type fast?
Yes.
36) Do you have piercings?
Just my ears.
37) Want any more?
Of course.
38) Can you spell well?
Yeahh.
39) Do you miss anyone from your past?
Yeah.
40) What are you craving right now?
Cuddles.
41) Ever been to a bonfire party? Kinda, with ex's family and mine.
43) Have you ever been on a horse?
Yes.
44) Kissed someone in a pick up truck?
Nope.
45) Have you ever broken someone’s heart?
Apparerently.
46) Have you ever been cheated on? Yes.
47) Have you made a boyfriend/girlfriend cry?
Yep.
49) Would you live with someone without marrying them?
Yeah.
50) What should you be doing? Maths. 51) What’s irritating you right now?
Ex.
52) Have you ever liked someone so much that it hurts?
Yeah.
53) Does somebody love you? LOL Not anymore.
54) What is your favourite colour?
Grey.
55) Have you ever changed clothes in a vehicle?
Yeah.
57) Do you have trust issues? As of lately.
60. Do you have a good relationship with your parents?
Somedays.
62) Do you believe your most recent ex thinks about you?
In a "i hate her guts" kinda way, yes.
63) Who was the last person you cried in front of?
Ex.64)
Do you give out second chances too easily?
Sometimes.
65) Is it easier to forgive or forget?
Forgive. But i'd rather forget.
66) Is this year the best year of your life?
Um, Nah.
67) What was your child hood nickname?
Pebbles.
68) Have you ever walked outside completely naked? At night maybe.
70) Do you believe everything happens for a reason?
No and Yes..
71) What is the last thing you did before you went to bed last night?
Cried while texting Stephen.
73) What is bothering you?
Everyone/thing..
74) Have you ever been out of your province?
Province?
75) Do you play the Wii?
My brothers are always on it.
76) Are you listening to music right now?
Yeah.
77) Do you like Chinese food?
Yeah.
78) Do you know your fathers b- day?
Yeah.
79) Are you afraid of the dark?
Only if i think about the possible things in it.
80) Is cheating ever okay?
No. Unless your boyfriend is a rapist or into little kids and you're scared to leave.
81) Are you mean?
Not really.
82) Can you keep white shoes clean?
Not forever..
84) Do you believe in true love?
I guess so.
88) Do you like the outside?
No.
89) Are you currently bored?
Yes.
90) Do you want to get married?
Not with the mood im in.
91) Is it cute when a boy/girl calls you baby?
Depends on the person. No arabs.
92) Are you hungry?
No.
93) Have you ever made out for more than a half hour straight? Probably.
94) What makes you happy?
Music. Tumblr. And Internet friends.
95) Would you change your name?
Yeah.
96) Ever been to Alaska?
Nope.
98) Do you watch the news?
Mum doesnt let me change the channel so i guess.
99) What’ s your zodiac sign?
Pieces
100) Do you like Subway?
Yeah.
101) Would it be hard to kiss the last person you kissed?
Yes. Emotionally anyways.
102) Your best friend of the opposite sex likes you, what do you do?
Im not friends with boys? .-.
103) Do you talk like your friends?
Completely vulgar and rude? Yes.
105) Have you ever seen someone you knew & purposely avoided them?
Yes.
106) Do you have a friend of the opposite sex who you can act your complete self around?
No.
107) Who was the last person of the opposite sex you talked to?
My brother.
108) Does it matter if your boyfriend/girlfriend smokes?
Nope.
109) Who’s the last person you had a deep conversation with?
Stephen.
110) Favourite lyrics right now? "push your cares, push your burdens aside. erase everything inside and leave just one thing on your mind."
111) Can you count to one million?
Im too lazy for that shit.

So.. im hated by everyone (that matter slightly). because thats just what happens, i swear to god, even if i wasnt involved in a fight at all, id be the one people hate. likeeee fuck, is this kindergarten?!

I feel really sick. And annoyed. .-. . . Looking back on old sets and being like "the shit?! What is this fuckery?! I think i'm retarded."

gonna' go have sex, take drugs and drink alcohol. anyone in? no? yeah me neither.

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